My spiritual Journey

December 22, 2019 - Today I really haven't noticed any empathic responses but only because I really haven't been around anyone today. I think there are days that I pick up on things coming from my family, but not so much anymore which is a blessing. Of course, when I am home, I am usually in my room working on my stuff so I am not around them so much. This makes it easier for me because every one's emotions seem to affect me anymore. I think this is main reason I don't like to leave the house or go places where there are a lot of people. I have a very difficult time being in a place where there a lot of people because of this. I think that's at least a part of the reason I quit going places most of the time. I find that anger especially I seem to have a hard time dealing with. It's always been that way for me. If I get around someone who is angry, I tend to take on some of the anger. I have to wonder if this helps the person dealing with the anger at all. I'…

Day 1, December 16, 2019, Powerful Spiritual Protection Cleansing White Light Meditation - I really like this meditation. The sense of calm that came over me is like nothing I have felt in a very long time. I was able to block out so much noise that I deal with on a daily basis. At the start of the playback, I was feeling like it wasn't going to work for me probably because many that I have tried don't seem to work very well for me. I can never seem to get to that place where my mind is calm. So this experience was something I've been looking for. The white light felt warm and inviting. Like a friend's house can be. Afterwards, I had so much energy. This was strange for me because I am usually always tired. It was amazing to actually have some energy to get some things done. I think the idea of the force field was very helpful for me as well. I felt good after doing this mediation.

Day 2, December 17, 2019, White Light Protection: "Warrior of Light" - I am hav…

Numbers Assignment

We use numbers every day. I think they should be important to everyone. I am not sure why I have been attracted to numbers my whole life. I would like to say that makes me good at math, but that is not the case. I am terrible at math, but give me a string of numbers and after looking at for a few minutes I can tell you that string from start to finish by memory. I use numbers a lot in baking and cooking. This, for me is both a magical and mundane use but I use cooking and baking for both. I generally try to set some intention before starting and use the ingredients that are going to complete that intention. And of course, cooking is also used simply to feed my family. Numbers are used any time we go to the store or get gas for a vehicle. Numbers are used every where and in every thing. My husband uses numbers when he is making something. He measures what he needs and his materials to make sure he has enough and can do what he is wanting to do. Numbers are everywhere.
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I went to the park here in town. It seems to be the place to go especially if you have kids. However, there really weren't a lot of people there when I got there. There was one couple sitting on a bench talking. I didn't get close enough to hear what they were saying, but I could see in the woman's eyes that it was something important. She was really listening to what he was telling her. Not listening like what am going to say next, but actually listening to what he was saying. I could tell that whatever he was telling her meant a lot to him and the fact that she was really listening seemed to make it easier for him to talk and say what he needed to say. She seemed to be feeling a bit overwhelmed by her body language. Like she needed to hear what he was saying, but it was very hard to hear. Her body language was telling him that she didn't like what he was saying but to keep going anyway, if that makes any sense at all. I guess that was the feeling I got from the way s…

1. Color: Green
Magickal purpose: Prosperity
Where I see it used mundanely: The color of money
What this means to me: Money signifies prosperity
2. Color: Green
Magickal purpose: Health
Where I see it used mundanely: Green plants growing are healthy
What this means to me: Green signifies health because if plants are green, they are usually healthy
3. Color: Green
Magickal purpose: Envy
Where I see it used mundanely: A person is green with envy when he or she wants something someone else has.
What this means to me: Green would be a good color to help with feelings of envy.
4. Color: Purple
Magickal purpose: tranquility
Where I see it used mundanely: Lavender is a plant for calm and tranquility
What this means to me: Lavender helps to calm a person
5. Color: Purple
Magickal purpose: Grace
Where I see it used mundanely: The purple flowers are beautiful and graceful
What this means to me: Treating yourself with grace will help your piece of mind
6. Color: Purple
Magickal purpose: Household protection
Where I s…

Day 1, December 6, 2019 - My experience was that as I watched the video I tried to do what he was saying to do. I wasn't able to see anything though as much as I wanted to. I think this was due to anxiety today that is a little worse than it normally is. I'm not sure about that though. Maybe I am just out of practice with my visualizations because I haven't done anything with it for a while now. Maybe tomorrow will be better all around. I know that after the first few minutes that nothing was happening I started to get frustrated. I should have stopped right then and tried it again later, but I didn't. That was probably the biggest reason that it didn't work today. I know I would like to blame it on my anxiety, but I can usually work despite it. Heck, my work usually makes it easier to deal with but that was not the case today.

Day 2, December 7, 2019 - My experience today was a little bit better. As I worked through the visualization video, I was able to see the w…

December 6, 2019

Were my emotions today mostly love-based or mostly fear-based?
My emotions today were mostly love-based. It was a good day. I was able to get out of the house for a little while before I got to overwhelmed. I worked with my neighbor to trim my goats hooves. I got to be outside for a while because the weather was good today.

What about the people, I was in contact with today? Did they affect me?

I am affected by the people around me every day. This is something I have been dealing with for a long time. I can usually tell what a person is feeling just by getting close to them. This is, I think, one reason why I struggle with my anxiety and have a hard time leaving the house some days.

Did my emotional position fluctuate throughout the day of stay consistent?

My emotional position was pretty consistent today which is a bit weird in itself. I can usually feel the fluctuations all day long. So I would have to say that all in all, today was a good day.

December 7, 2019

Were my emot…